Imperfections

I wasn't going to post this, but since so much anticipation from a friend I guess I should. Took me a while to narrow which photos would be posted, but I settled down to seven photos. I liked Ya-kun was happy to take photos of me and he did it really well even though I had to put the settings for him. I just...I'm really not happy with how I look in these photos. Literally I've done a switch and look really round. I know I'm really being hard on myself here but it's hard looking at these photos and know that everything looks and feels wrong about the way I look.

Don't get me wrong. The clothes are perfect. Sleek and streamlined with a perfect balance of black and white. But the hair is not me. It's very straight yes but I feel like I have a wig on. On a the slightly brighter side it fits the streamline look the vest conveys. Even now I don't bother to comb it trying to see if there's any way I can get it back to the messy look I always have it. Make matters worse it makes my face even more round. Lately, my self-esteem is shot and even now clothes don't cover up what faults I have. I'm being honest here, I don't feel so great in how I look. I'm seeing what I can change and I know what I need to do. Just in the meantime...being a place where the person that is suppose to be family doesn't see me as beautiful (?) is hurting me more than I know. When I see these photos I see so many imperfections now. I'm so embarrassed that I'm even posting them. It's a nice reality check. Though, I try to keep a shred of thought that I still look pretty nice. I mean I was able to pick out seven nice photos in the end.

I guess in this way I can show people that everyone struggles how they look no matter how good looking they are people still wish to change something or feel down about themselves until they have that amazing confidence they look good no matter what. Just in this case, the reality is that I could lose a lot of weight. Let's look at this way...fashion bloggers have real live and real insecurities. It's not all about great clothes and really skinny looking people. Just I guess in this way we get to share our love for fashion even when we don't feel our best. I hope despite how I feel personally about the photos you guys enjoy them.